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I Heard Her Speak Elvish... 
4th-Jan-2004 01:43 am
Reborn - Yamamoto CHIBITA


Was driven home by my uncle. Exited car with two siblings, one of whom smelt of beer. Car drove off with the shouts of two girls ringing into the night.

We stared up at the dark, imposing edifice that is our house.

"I think I have my keys..." I said.

XD

Mom dropped me off at my aunt's house - youngest sibling was playing soccer there - and discovered that what I thought was going to be a simple family dinner was actually a huge potluck gathering involving uncle's colleagues.

Am I the only person I know who cuts pizza with kitchen scissors? They're so much more efficient than a knife!

Ended up sitting on stairs with Legolas Fancier, reitering How Much Legolas and Aragorn Look Like They're Getting Married in RotK. Also ended up talking to my uncle's colleages, who also studied in London and Glasgow. (There were two of them) And they had a White Christmas in Scotland. ; ) Had another conversation with another of uncle's colleagues about how siblings fight. XD

Had wonderful discussion with Aunt and Sibling D (fresh from orientation script-writing) about friends, what they mean to us and doing without them. *is thoughtful*

Then watched Pirates of the Caribbean. XDDDD Extremely amused by Non-Legolas Fancier, who laughs at scenes I never thought she'd laugh at, and who started Primary school just this Friday.

My aunt is amazing. She saw the PotC gay. In the extremely goofy pair of pirates - the ones who had to dress up as women: Pintel and his friend? - and the pair of soldiers who accost Jack when he first attempts to make off with a boat.

And Non-Legolas Fancier does a shriek-inducing imitation of TTT Legolas saying in Elvish, "They are all going to die!"

Learnt more about guinea pig anatomy than I ever wanted to know.



Found part of this essay off this post on theferrett's journal, whom I found on sandara3's journal.



From that day onwards, I vowed never to be ashamed of anything I enjoyed again. I started reading whenever I felt like it. I talked to women, and actually became a fairly notorious womanizer for a long time. I emceed the Rocky Horror for four years straight and I was always happy to inform people what it felt like to walk around in negligee and stockings. (The answer: Itchy.)

But most importantly, I learned that the only person who could humiliate me was ME. And only then if I failed to stand up for myself.

And so I ask the collective Magic community the question:

HOW LONG?

HOW LONG ARE YOU GONNA STAY IN HIGH SCHOOL?

(Not literally. Metaphorically.)

So many of you are terrified of admitting your geeky tendencies. Of telling people that you play this silly little childish power fantasy we all share. And you're all idiots who should be grownups.

There is no reason to hide it. NONE. Get under yourself.

Because a lot of the people who deride your geek hobbies now are going to have horrible, empty deaths. Really. Because the vast majority of people in America don't really have any driving interests. They watch television, they like football, they're fond of flipping through the National Enquirer when they walk through the checkout lane... but nothing drives them to get up in the morning except the threat of bedsores.

They're like automatons. They get up, they work to survive, they watch television because it makes time vanish, they go to bed. Wash. Rinse. Repeat. Rizzo alluded to this in one of his articles, but he still missed the damn point.

These people will eventually retire... And will have nothing to do.

Unless these poor clods can find some hobby to cling on to, they will spend the last twenty years of their life sitting in a room, hoping desperately that their kids call them, wondering where all the good times went. Wanna see what happens to people like this? Go watch "Requiem For A Dream," the best damn movie to come out in the New Millennium, and see what happens to Ellen Burstyn's character - the elderly mother whose husband has died, leaving her in utter isolation. The horror is not what happens to her in the end, although that's pretty damned bad... The horror oozes from her monologue in the middle of the movie, where you realize her dreams have shrunken, SHRIVELLED, to the point where simply getting on television and saying NOTHING is her utmost fantasy.

The movie is, as the title says, about dreams dying, but hers were locked away in a coffin long before she came on screen. The same could happen to you.

You wanna know where the good times are?

They're in that box that you're hiding in your jacket. The one with the goofy green beatdown deck. That's the one.

That's the passion that will keep you alive.

And by hiding your hobby, by being ashamed of the wondrous little secret, you let the world define you and everyone like you.

Every time someone talks about those geeks who play Magic or Dungeons and Dragons or Warhammer and you hide your love - or worse yet, act embarrassed to be caught doing it - then you're contributing to the stigma. You're admitting, "Yes, you're right - This IS a shameful thing I am doing, and I wish you hadn't caught me at it."

Whereas if you stand up and say, "Yeah, I play Magic! It's a fun game. Anyone wanna tell me how it's any different from, say, spending your weekends in the Fantasy Football League, balancing points and sucking down endless facts about football players who could care less whether you live or die?" They're probably not gonna leap up and join you in a game, but you have now tilted the balance. Someone they know plays it. Someone they know ENJOYS it. And is not a jot less cool for it. (Unless you're the unwashed social misfit who they all giggle at when you leave the room. You big ugly dirty guys can just keep hiding, thankyouverymuch.)

Every time someone asks you what you did this weekend, and instead of saying, "I came in third at a Magic Sealed tourney!" you mutter, "Oh, nothing," because you don't want them to think of you as That Sort Of Person - every time you do that, you contribute to the Great Misunderstanding.

Either you bow to the pressure and, paradoxically, INCREASE it - or you stand up and shatter it.

If you have a hobby, and you love it, and if you're hiding it... Well, then you're still in high school and you're always gonna BE in high school. You'll always be terrified that people won't understand you, and ashamed of the way they treat you. And you'll deserve every mock and every flash of fear you get.

Everyone's scornful of the unknown and feels a need to mock it - that's normal human behavior. But if you cave in to their pressure, you're letting the world define YOU, as opposed to YOU defining IT.

You know what? You're different. You're always gonna BE different. You're not gonna get to feel normal, ever, because you're playing a damn game filled with weird cards and bizarre interactions and you like it. And the truth is, after this love goes away, something else will replace it. You are driven to enjoy things in ways that others never will be. People will be jealous and scared of you for this. DEAL WITH IT.

Because it's a gift.

Relish it. Live your Magic. Be a geek. Be the nerd. Because it means you're alive, you're vital, and you're ahead of the game. It might not be football or Yahtzee or "Who Wants To Be A Millionaire?", but screw it - whatever gets you through the day is better than 75% of the world.

Remember that. Live. Breathe. Dare to do more than just frickin' SURVIVE.

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7th-Jan-2004 12:05 pm (UTC) - *GLOMPS YOU BACK*
I liked it very much, too ^_^

*HUGS YOU*

Also, I keep meaning to say - I very much like the writing excerpts you put up on your LJ. ; )
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9th-Jan-2004 02:41 am (UTC) - We Should Do A Movie Marathon!
That's right! ; ) They're from Love Actually ^_^

Oh yes, it was meant to be suggestive! *glomps you for picking up on it* The actual lines were even more eyebrow-raising: She said, "I've already told you. When it comes to me, you can have everything." XDDD

Loved the show! ; ) Had extremely cute moments! If I get it on DVD, want to do a movie marathon at my place sometime, when we're both in Singapore?

*GLOMPS BACK*
3rd-Jan-2004 10:39 am (UTC)
That was why when my mother mentioned of a simple life, like work 9-5, get home, have 2.5 kids and a husband, watch tv, like a typical simple woman, she would be happy - I basically shuddered and shouted at told her it was a HORRIBLE thought, that I'd be waiting to die if I led that kind of life.
Next moment, I felt so sad for her. But she's better at looking for things she likes now. Not too late to start.


Doesn't help knowing more of guinea pig anatomy when you have two named Aragorn and Legolas, eh? ^_~
7th-Jan-2004 12:09 pm (UTC)
*hugs you*

Never too late to start ; )

And I always seem to want to look at things I like ; ) Even if finding them is difficult.

*is promptly seized by an attack of True Evil*

*goes over and looks at you*

XDXDXD

There are some things I do not wish to know about guinea pig anatomy - Or should I say, there are certain ways in which I do not wish to be educated about guinea pig anatomy. Putting the Guinea Pig in my face among top three reasons for my Disinclination for Such Anatomical Education.
7th-Jan-2004 10:38 pm (UTC)
The scarier part was when she looks at me, sigh and tells me that she wishes I was a simple woman like her that makes me want to scream. She says I'm too wierd to be her child - that I'm an alien.

While Dad thinks I'm a perfectly normal human being.

Maybe he's an alien.

XDDD

Ohh...Legolas or Aragorn anatomy pressed to your face? The thought of it...*ponders* *amused* I can understand the discomfort of such anotomical education. *chuckles*

Since you came over yesterday, until now, my grandma keeps praising you, saying how well-mannered you are, etc etc. *plugs ears* Not the first time now. But you are indeed too kind. I didn't even bring that much food to your house when I visited! *laughs* *blinks and looks at you* Nothing good to look at here~~ *waves you away* Go look at something prettier! XDD
9th-Jan-2004 02:39 am (UTC)
I think that when I think about the differences between my Mom and I. ; ) Except it's me doing the thinking. That I'm so different from her I've no idea how she raised me. Well - Interests-wise. I think I'm going to turn out more than just a little like my mom, though. I see it coming.

No, your Dad's immensely fun. And since when did fun make you an extraterrerestrial?

Aragorn's anatomy in my direct line of sight *covers mind's eye*

*blushes *colours* *hides* *stammers*

You brought yourself, and that is everything I want enough *smiles*

Go look at something prettier! XDD

I don't see anything prettier! You're asking for the impossible!

XDXDXD
9th-Jan-2004 06:13 am (UTC)
I went @_@ at the blatent grammatical error in my last comment post.
Careless me. Well, it'd be fun if my mother married an alien, non? *grin* I'm much more like my dad than my mom. In which we'd refuse to do things we don't like - eg. housework, and can't keep money in our pockets for long.

I didn't bring myself. I merely stayed home XDD It's my house you were visiting, dearie. And thankies for all the lovely food and books you lent me!

I'm not pretty. I'm Still the Prettiest! Argh, stupid Legolas nancing elvish tendencies... Prettier things out there! Like...er...your guinea pigs. *runs from you*
3rd-Jan-2004 07:46 pm (UTC)
Hai! : ) I'd always say what I had fun doing. ; ) What's there to hide?

[and PotC is somewhat gay yes. heheh.]
7th-Jan-2004 12:10 pm (UTC)
Totally. ; ) When it comes to matters like these, we honestly shouldn't bother about what other people think.

*wanders up in a Slytherin scarf* I was quite reticient about admitting I liked Harry Potter, though.

PotC totally gay! *falls in love*
7th-Jan-2004 06:10 pm (UTC)
yeah... we shouldn't. ; )

I don't like Harry Potter! XD
4th-Jan-2004 12:16 am (UTC)
*simply applauds essay excerpt, because brain is too tired to do more*

Sounded like a fun family-plus-family's-collegues gathering!
7th-Jan-2004 12:12 pm (UTC)
*hugs* Hope your mind's well-rested when you see this! ; )

Very fun gathering indeed! ; )

*APPROPRIATES HOUSE, EJECTS RELATIVES AND COLLEAGUES, AND GATHERS RATAL*

Love your icon, by the way XD
4th-Jan-2004 12:54 am (UTC)
*raises hand* I cut pizza with scissors. My whole family does.

oh, theferrett... I remember he made some very long quiz once...


Quote: You're different. You're always gonna BE different.

Yup. Always remember that you are unique. Just like everybody else.
7th-Jan-2004 12:14 pm (UTC)
*HEARTS* You and arrch too! I AM NOT ALONE!!

Yes! If I'm not wrong, he made the What Kind of LJ user Are You quiz. XD

Unique just like everybody else. *takes out microscope* I detect... a minor contradiction.

XDDDDD

Very Fight Club, that line ; )
7th-Jan-2004 04:44 pm (UTC)
oh speaking of Fight Club... I had a movie-dream ( where my viewpt is the camera viewpt) and Brad Pitt was in it... with Voldemort O.o And for some reason there was a pirate flag hanging in Voldemort's fireplace...and a black pool table.
9th-Jan-2004 02:43 am (UTC) - Could You See Rowan Atkinson as Voldemort?
! XDDDD Cool! Voldemort as Barbossa!!!

There was an exhilarating rumor going about a while back that Rowan Atkinson would be Voldemort ^_^

SO wrong.

Actually... So right.

It's not true. Not that you didn't know ^_^
9th-Jan-2004 06:07 am (UTC) - Re: Could You See Rowan Atkinson as Voldemort?
It was on TV in the 10 o'clock news last night, that said that Rowan Atkinson suffered from a bout of depression, and wants to do more serious roles for a change.

Yeah, maybe he could do old Voldemort...
10th-Jan-2004 12:06 am (UTC) - Re: Could You See Rowan Atkinson as Voldemort?
Yeah, I heard that rumour... Mr Bean as Voldie was a very scary thought indeed. *shudders*

I say Geoffrey Rush as Mad Eye Moody!
4th-Jan-2004 01:34 am (UTC)
*applauds* brilliant essay... the ferret has exactly the right idea *grin* and it's a principle I live by completely which is why I don't care when people realize I did play D&D and I still play board games and watch and read anime and manga and cosplay because life is just too short to let other people define you and make you miserable because y'know what? Really - only you can make yourself miserable *smile*
7th-Jan-2004 12:16 pm (UTC)
Completely! *hugs you*

*whistles* You play D&D? *admiration* Love the universe, myself, and adore the books, but am very, very bad at playing. ; )

As long as we love what we're doing, what others think matters precious little ; )

Hope the month's going fine for you ^_^
4th-Jan-2004 02:40 am (UTC)
Okay. Your writing froze my brain. Brain freeze.

Until the "Because it is a gift."

It is a gift.

You're damn right it's a gift.

Meh. Pardon.
7th-Jan-2004 12:02 pm (UTC)
Wish I'd written that! ; ) Though that essay excerpt was all theferret's doing.

It was the "You'll always BE different" line that got me.

*hugs you*
4th-Jan-2004 04:05 am (UTC)
Hey! We cut pizza with scissors! Works fine and is much more efficient - less topping spillage!
7th-Jan-2004 12:04 pm (UTC)
You cut pizza with scissors too! ; )

*happiness* Am not alone!

And YES! Less toppling toppings! XDDDD And so much easier than knives!
7th-Jan-2004 03:15 pm (UTC)
*feels like eating pizza*

^__^

BTW - Isil said she needs to catch up with you before you leave!
9th-Jan-2004 02:44 am (UTC)
Ah yes - And she will! ^_^

I have the feeling the Squee is coming on.

"Squee is on the way. I feel it."
6th-Jan-2004 10:16 am (UTC) - hi there
remember me ?
justin desu, hope you don't mind me adding ya to me friends list ?
7th-Jan-2004 12:03 pm (UTC) - But of course! *smiles*
Definitely! ; ) Have just added you! ; )

And of course I remember you! ; ) Even without pictures ^_^
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