I'm so tired of being nice. I'm generally pretty tolerant, but sometimes: I've really had it up to here. I've met some great people in the fandom, yes. And yeah, it's ... generally, an okay place. Some days, it's a great place. But, my heavens, I've also been on the receiving end of a lot of dreck, more than any other fandom I've ever been in. It makes me tired and exhausted and as emo as Asch and Arietta put together and replicated as many times as Van has badtouched Luke. It makes me want to shut myself in my room and play Evanescence and Linkin Park and Simple Plan and waaaaaaaaaiiiiiiillllllll all day long. It's such an effort not making emo posts on LJ, and I can't be bothered with it any more. When I play FFXII I am THANK YOU FOR NOT BEING ABYSS.
I know damn well that when people emo, it makes OTHER PEOPLE EMO. But sometimes I JUST WANT TO EMO TOO, DAMN IT AND CURSE IT ALL TO the cheegles. I hate the person I'm turning into!
I'm sick of being Guy! I want to be Van, and abuse a lot of things!
I'm sick of being the gardener, I want to be the flower for once!
It is so hard being nice that sometimes I just don't want to post any more! Deep down inside, I like watching Asch suffer as much as I like watching people cry.
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