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5th-Sep-2007 12:43 am
Reborn - Yamamoto CHIBITA
Caught Hairspray. And riiiiiight after the second song, I was, Okay, this movie is too happy for me. I did enjoy the movie, eventually: man, I loved Tracy's parents, and Tracy was just so full of life and sparkle and idealism, and if I didn't know that was John Travolta, I wouldn't have known it was John Travolta, and you know my heart only beats for Size 60! I love her mom and dad and the whole family unit. And Michelle Pfeiffer was great, and incredibly gorgeous for someone her age, and the I kept thinking she was so Blades of Glory's Jimmy to John Travolta's Chazz. I am not joking. Except, you know, if Jimmy was Fairchild.

But as much as I liked it, I staggered out of the theatre saying, "I NEED to watch something violent. I HAVE to get all that saccharine sweetness out of my system!"

My brother was watching all this with wry amusement, and he said, "You need to get back to reality?"

"YES!" I said. "I NEED TO DECOMPRESS!"


I know it sounds strange, but spectacularly emo songs actually make me VERY happy. Granted, birds taking sandbaths, babies, and Blades of Glory make me happy, and those are just the things that begin with B, but really. I really like Jimmy Eat World's 'Pain' - first heard it off the Closer soundtrack, and I adore it. And Simple Plan's untitled. SO EMO, the MTV's an anti-drunk driving advert. I know people who hate it because it's so over-the-top, but it's precisely why I love it!

The subject matter we're dealing with in school doesn't help much, either. It's been like this for the past three days: write representations for a defendant in a multiple-party rape case, lecture on wills, tutorial (which went on for two hours) on how to draft divorce proceedings. And on Thursday I'm scheduled for the Criminal Legal Aid Scheme session, which, from friends' accounts, I think the best you can hope for is that your defendants don't show up. Because these are people poor enough to need legal aid, and the best part is, we're there to recommend whether or not they can get it. And it's not just based on whether they can afford it: it depends on whether the legal aid is going to make a difference, because there aren't enough lawyers around to represent everyone.

Students have had to interview child victims of rape and eighteen-year-olds who are slated to do time.

You know there is this part in Ratatouille, nice trailer here, in fact, where the little chef says, "It's obvious I have to rethink my life." It's not as dramatic as all that, but when I was young and I wanted to study law it was so that I could learn enough to protect other people. And now that I'm older and I've learned what I've learned it seems that I've just learned new ways to be powerless, because now I know for sure that there are situations where you cannot help someone, and that is a limit to what the law can do and a limit to what can be enforced and a limit to which you can try to help someone, because sometimes even if you advise them to do something, people will still go on and do stupid, stupid things and get themselves hurt, and there is nothing you can do about it. I hate feeling powerless.

I suppose it's going back into the office today that does it, too: I really miss work, sometimes, because that's where you feel like you're really doing something, something to help, whoever it is you're working for, instead of an academic treadmill that sometimes makes you feel more depressed, because nothing you do is real and you're not changing anything standing where you are. I know objectively that you're there to learn more so you can help people better, but sometimes it just feels like nothing.

Don't mind me: it's just that three close friends of mine have all left the country last week, so that can't be helping, too. I usually don't miss people on the surface of my mind, and being busy helps, it's just that there are some times when nothing can make me happy for long, or I'm sad for no reason I can name, and I think it's work that's stressing me out until I finish all my work and realise that I still feel the same. I used to get this way when my brother left for boarding school, and I suppose it's no different now. Don't mind me.

I got to talk to kimivalkyrie today, and that was fun! Can't wait til you're here! ♥



Also stupid things amuse me, like when we were in drafting divorce proceedings today, and our assigned lawyer was telling us that we had to produce the original or the certified true copy of the marriage certificate, and I wrote, because she was talking fast:

original/true copy


And the Abyss fan inside of me did a happy backflip of joy.

Speaking of happy backflips of joy, this told me about the new JADE COVER Degenki Maou issue, which unfortunately seems unobtainable at bookshops here, but:







Also, much love for FF7:

hazelator's post here led me to this

I was about to say RRR. But it sure ain't Reuse, Reduce, and Recycle, it's Reno, Rude and Rufus:



Also, apparently what will be in Degenki Maou:







Also, manic_intent wrote this FABULOUS Star Wars/FF12 crossover - Tales From the Old Republic, which I absolutely loved. Balthier as Basch's padawan, and it is really perfect. I honestly do think that such is her gift with writing that she could make any idea sound glorious.
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4th-Sep-2007 05:36 pm (UTC)
Yep, getting that issue in the mail very soon! Can't wait :3
4th-Sep-2007 05:44 pm (UTC)
Throws a cheegle at you with jealousy. *grin* I hope you enjoy it! I'm actually partially glad that it isn't available here, because God knows I spend enough money on Abyss as it is. ;)
4th-Sep-2007 05:40 pm (UTC)
I ordered from Amazon.jp. I caved into the pressure. The Keterburg-gumi win it for me every single time. D: I mean, you can't pass up sexy covers of Jade and Peony. :/
4th-Sep-2007 05:45 pm (UTC)
How much do I love your icon, it's gorgeous! I haven't been fanart surfing for ages.

XDDDDD I think I would have been a little more persuaded if Degenki Maou came with anything else I was interested in. But usually when they release an anthology like this, there isn't an Abyss installment to go with it. I HOPE YOU ENJOY IT. ♥
4th-Sep-2007 05:56 pm (UTC)
I've been looking forward to Hairspray for so long! xD BUT:

I kept thinking she was so Blades of Glory's Jimmy to John Travolta's Chazz. I am not joking. Except, you know, if Jimmy was Fairchild.

I think you might have just ruined the entire movie for me, sweetheart. ;)

JUST KIDDING! Maaan, I wish I was still in Singapore with you... You've been going to all these movies I've been wanting to see for ages! xD Ratatouille is one of my favourite dishes? a great source of amusement! I've been comparing all the ways the title has been pronounced in different countries and nearly all of them are wrong. *laughs!*

It's been like this for the past three days: write representations for a defendant in a multiple-party rape case, lecture on wills, tutorial (which went on for two hours) on how to draft divorce proceedings.

I know this isn't exactly the same, but this reminded me a little of reading the job description at Build-A-Bear? I always thought I'd simply love working there - until I found out about the birthday parties (IT EVEN SAID BACHELOR PARTIES! CAN YOU IMAGINE?! O.o) and the fact that I will have to sing in public. It's like, no matter how perfect a job seems at first... there's always going to be a downside somewhere?

Siigh. sometimes I wish I could take your place for a few days but then I don't think I have what it takes to be you. ^^;

I've just learned new ways to be powerless, because now I know for sure that there are situations where you cannot help someone, and that is a limit to what the law can do and a limit to what can be enforced and a limit to which you can try to help someone, because sometimes even if you advise them to do something, people will still go on and do stupid, stupid things and get themselves hurt, and there is nothing you can do about it. I hate feeling powerless.

O.o That's a lot of italics... *huggles!* I hope I don't make you feel that way too often. I usually do take your advice and listen to you, you know. Remember that card you sent me, which said: Sometimes the heart should tell the mind to stay at home and STOP INTERFERING? xD

At the end of the day you help more people than most regular Singaporean 20-something year old women, though. That has to count for something.

I hope you realise "don't mind me" doesn't work on me? xD Gah, I wish I could send you something nice to cheer you up - but I'm not about to ruin my great Christmas Present Plan! ;) I'll send out your School of Scoundrels parcel tomorrow? *snugs!*

I know objectively that you're there to learn more so you can help people better, but sometimes it just feels like nothing.

... I think that makes me feel slightly better about not being able to join my classmates for another year. ^^;;
4th-Sep-2007 05:57 pm (UTC) - O.o
I am really going through LiveJournal withdrawal. T.T

... need ... to ... post ...

HALP? xD
4th-Sep-2007 07:24 pm (UTC)
...Oh wow, in regards to your classes, that sounds seriously depressing. *hugs*

But at least you get an original/copy divorce paper OTP? >: ...Nevermind how that actually works. >->
6th-Sep-2007 02:51 pm (UTC)
*hugs tight!* Thank you so much. ♥ Sometimes we really need that.

;) It's the marriage certificate that's original/copy - because sometimes, the originals get lost: or ripped up by angry other halves. Then when the original's incapacitated, they have to go make the copy, because nothing gets done otherwise! ;)
4th-Sep-2007 08:58 pm (UTC)
The new dengeki maoh cover is so lovely... And the Peony story... I wish I could order it somewhere (but the shipping costs from amazon.co.jp aren't so nice...).

I have an important question to ask~ Since your writing about Tales of the Abyss Another Story, it's not totally off topic...
Sorry for writing this in your lifejournal, but I didn't find a mail addy or something else to contact you qq~
For a while, you updated some scans of the Ion story (also from dengeki maoh). I just want to know, if I could use this scans for our german scanlation (www.Majinken.de.vu). I will give you the credit for the scans, of course!
Would be so glad if we could use them~
6th-Sep-2007 03:07 pm (UTC) - Sure! No problem!
Shipping costs are always evil. It makes me wish there was teleportation. For people and goods.

Sure, you're most welcome to the Ion Another Story scans! Don't worry about it. I'm delighted that there will be a German scanlation, and I wish you all the best on your project!
4th-Sep-2007 10:23 pm (UTC)
I was going to try contact Kinokuniya to help order for me too... until I saw someone had already uploaded the Peony ss in the tota com XD;;
6th-Sep-2007 03:10 pm (UTC) - LOVES! ;)
HI THERE. ♥

XD SAME HERE! I was so thrilled when I saw the link. ;) It means I can save money for the Character Guide! ;)
4th-Sep-2007 10:39 pm (UTC)
http://www.gametrailers.com/player/usermovies/100112.html Crisis Core latest trailer translated if you haven't seen it. xD

the story was meant to be crack!! QQ
6th-Sep-2007 03:17 pm (UTC) - A most unrepentant OOPS. ;)
the story was meant to be crack!! QQ
Was it? ;) I enjoyed it anyway! ♥ I still insist I don't like crack, but hey, I loved your story.

EE! Thanks for the link! *beams* I hadn't actually seen it, so this is BRILLIANT!
5th-Sep-2007 12:02 am (UTC)
Apparently the 2nd official anthology has a Guy/Luke cover on it *runs around in frantic circles* We saw it off the inside ads of the Peony cover manga XDDD

Original/True copy indeed ♥

I'm gonna be watching Hairspray on Friday XD I guess I'm just there for the songs... |D *sucker for musical like things*
6th-Sep-2007 03:25 pm (UTC) - XDDDDDDDDD!!!
THANK YOU FOR YOUR COMMENT! Because of it I returned to the community and got my happy share of the Peony manga! Now I am not desperate to get Degenki Maou, and can save up for the TOA Character Guide! ;)

I NOTICED THE GUY/LUKE COVER OMG OMG OMG AND I CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT WAIT, THAT IS THE ONE I WILL BURN DOWN ELDRANT FOR. ♥

ORIGINAL/TRUE COPY ALWAYS AND FOREVER ♥

! Tell me what you think of the movie when you see it! ♥
5th-Sep-2007 12:16 am (UTC)
... but when I was young and I wanted to study law it was so that I could learn enough to protect other people


That's so Phoenix Wright-y. =D
6th-Sep-2007 03:30 pm (UTC)
I know. Depressing, isn't it, all that idealism? ;)

I always thought 80% of Phoenix's REAL wish to study law was due to EDGEWORTH!!! NOTICE MEEEEEEEE!!!
5th-Sep-2007 01:48 am (UTC)
OMGUH. *fangirls the three like mad* Why oh why oh why must the most sexy men be animated only... ;_;
6th-Sep-2007 03:51 pm (UTC)
Heh heh, I think there are loads of sexy men IRL! ;) Most on movie screens and television, though! *beams* BUT YEAH. THOSE THREE, ARE SO HOT.
5th-Sep-2007 03:14 am (UTC)
Aww. Chazz is trying to do the MacElroy pout again because Jimmy didn't like Hairspray as much as Chazz thought he would. Chazz thought that there were a lot of references to reality in the songs, though, if you listened really hard. And a lot of breaking-the-fourth-wall lines.

Although I did think that the ending with Link (Link! Of all the names! XDDD) and Tracy getting together was a bit too fake for my liking. Hee. And now that I think about it, Edna does = Chazz and Velma = Jimmy. Oh noes. XDDD And whut, the seduction was the other way around this time, with Jimmy trying to get into Chazz's woman's pants. XDDDDD

Oh noes. *looks forward to cuddling Jimmy and taking Jimmy's mind of bad things. tonight* (XDDDDDDD Of course I mean watching Ratatouille together, whut?
6th-Sep-2007 04:37 pm (UTC) - BABE YOU GOTTA SEE THIS
Jimmy thought there were an AMAZING number of breakin' the fourth wall lines, too! ;) But he must have overdosed on Skittles that day. We can happily concur on rat/chef slash!



I have such WOW FACTOR for Velma's beauty at that age! But my soft spot is for Edna: I'm so fond of her. I think she's brave and fabulous and beautiful. OH, THAT SONG? BIG, BLOND AND BEAUTIFUL? I LOVED THAT SONG.

And whut, the seduction was the other way around this time, with Jimmy trying to get into Chazz's woman's pants. XDDDDD
As opposed to Chazz unintentionally getting into Jimmy's woman's... badtouch zone? ;) YEAH.

*CUDDLES YOU* LIKE. WHOA. THE NEXT TIME I SEE YOU WE ARE SO GONNA BE SPENDING MORE TIME TOGETHER.
5th-Sep-2007 05:11 am (UTC)
Hahaha! I know exactly what you mean about needing something violent XD that was how I felt after playing ToA for too long...I had to switch over to Gungrave or DMC3 to shoot things up to get rid of that overwhelming WAFF.

I love Jimmy Eat World's Pain! <3 I heard it first on a House FST and it really resonated. I guess with angst, you sort of vicariously enjoy the catharsis in it...that must be why you feel better listening to them.

*hugs* I really admire you for your ideals; don't let the reality of the situation, no matter how horrible, bring you down. You can't fix everything, but you can take that feeling of helplessness and turn it around into a renewed drive to do something good. As for feeling powerless...heh, that reminds me of what the postdoc at work said - he told me the higher up you go in your studies, the more you realize how little you know. Getting a PhD is just understanding how much there is still out there to be discovered. So I guess the same goes for you - as you become a better and better lawyer, you'll realize that there is even more out there you can't do. But in finding those limits, you'll be all the wiser and more knowledgeable as to what you can do...and how you can work towards those things you thought you couldn't do before. One thing at a time, eh? Even Jade couldn't save the world all alone XD.

I really miss work, sometimes, because that's where you feel like you're really doing something, something to help, whoever it is you're working for, instead of an academic treadmill that sometimes makes you feel more depressed, because nothing you do is real and you're not changing anything standing where you are. I know objectively that you're there to learn more so you can help people better, but sometimes it just feels like nothing.

I COMPLETELY AGREE WITH THIS. You summarized exactly how I feel - and why despite all the admonitions people tell me about how much more tiring work is, I would still rather be there than on this, as you call it, academic treadmill. Here, I'm learning, but out there, I'm doing...and I can say with confidence that I accomplished something solid each day. I...I don't know. I suppose there's a part of me that's impatient to see real results and actually be out on the ground, rather than wrapped up in this little ivory tower.

I don't think I could become a professor...

I wish I could be there for you! Missing people is so natural...but it makes seeing them again all the sweeter. I hope you'll see them again soon, and in the meantime, don't kill yourself with the stress!

<333 Thanks for the Peony and Jade scans ^_^ they are so cute. I completely fangirl the Rufus and the Turks picture too. It's about time Square listened to us!
5th-Sep-2007 05:33 am (UTC)
Peony looks so...so...
HAWT~
*much LOVE*
5th-Sep-2007 12:58 pm (UTC)
afsagadfakmsd RENO ♥
6th-Sep-2007 05:06 pm (UTC)
RENO INDEED ♥

*GIVES YOU LOTS OF LOVE*
5th-Sep-2007 05:28 pm (UTC)
Aw, I love you, Chris. Hope you feel better soon. ♥ ♥ ♥

p. s. I got you a random Abyss doujinshi in Japan, pretty much as a gesture of affection more than anything else, 'cos I'm sure you've read more and better. Possibly you already have the one I bought! Anyway I should get around to sending you a parcel while I'm still in Malaysia. Do I have your address? E-mail me it just in case! blueinspiration @ gmail.com
6th-Sep-2007 05:22 pm (UTC) - I HUG YOU A THOUSAND TIMES AND THEN A THOUSAND TIMES MORE
I LOVE YOU TOO, SWEETHEART. *HUGS* I am HAPPY that you are safe and well back home. *snug*

!!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH! *BEAMS* I love you and anything from you with a passion, and even if I have it already, this will be SPECIAL because it is from YOU. ♥ And it is from you, which makes it the BEST. *SNUUUUG*

Just emailed you! *HUGS AND BEAMS* THANK YOU SO MUCH! ♥
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